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Trying to put thoughts into words. Erica Thinks Too Much:

I feel validated.

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Lately, I’ve been on a meme-sharing rampage. All my socials have caught on and are flooding me with memes. They connect with what I’m experiencing individually, but also with what we are all experiencing on a national, even global scale: the pandemic, the isolation, the social unrest, Bernie’s amazing gloves.

And that is still sometimes hard for me

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Last year, there was one kid in my daughter’s class who didn’t have siblings. Mine. I don’t think the teacher realized this. But when they would talk about playing or home life, they often talked about their brothers and sisters. My kid would come home and ask when she would…

They didn’t match the drama I expected

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Chalk another thing up to misrepresentation in media. In TV shows and movies when someone has a panic attack it’s a big deal. They clutch their chest, fall to the ground, or are sure it’s a heart attack. They heave big, panicked breaths.

They don’t curl into a ball and…

Gut instincts vs distorted thoughts.

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One Nasty Thing About Depression Is That It Is Self-Perpetuating.

That is, the symptoms are themselves a barrier to getting better.

When you don’t have the self-confidence to advocate for yourself, you can’t get the medical help or accommodation support you need. When you wake up fatigued and your body is sore, you can’t get the exercise you need. When…

Neurodiversity and gender identity wrapped up in a sarcastic package.

An inspirational poster of which Murderbot would approve, from

My absolute favourite series of the last few years is The Murderbot Diaries by Martha Wells. It is made up of several novellas and a recent novel, Network Effect. Turns out, I am far from alone. You’d be hard-pressed to find someone who does not like this book or series.

A poem/thought.

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Just a reminder that
tidiness is unnatural

You are not meant
to (always) be in control

If you don't sweep
birds come for the seeds

If you don't weed
you get more bees

Let flowers die
you get more in the spring

Be careful where you exert your will
You know…

You may have heard this story before

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It took a major breakdown for me to face up to the fact that the roles I played were not sustainable. You can read all about it because I wrote about some of it here.

Autistics call these carefully but unconsciously created behaviours ‘masking’. They are coping mechanisms that are…

Dysfunctional family fun, Levy and O’Hara magic, and open, honest pride.

Moira Rose handles things well. Found at

I am reluctant to admit that I was not an early adopter of Schitt’s Creek. Based on the promos I saw, I didn’t think I would like it. Even though I had family urging me to watch it, I didn’t. Not until it was starting to blow up in 2020…

But, I’m watching them, and compiling video evidence.

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I feel like I’m being attacked by octopuses. I may be overreacting.

But everywhere I turn right now, it seems there is something about octopuses.

(On a side note, I’m working on a theory that if they wanted to, octopuses could take over the world. More on that later.)


“Plan Ahea”. Made by the author using Canva.

Sometimes it just all falls apart.

Erica Marta Ball

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